Tuesday 28 December 2010

All through the night, you could hear it in the fog

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All through the night, you could hear it in the fog.

Like the calls of great, strange whales -- deep and mournful -- the horns of the ships were each unique.  Some seemed like they were already aground, bellowing in anger, others much more distant -- sailing through the night to Spain, Scandinavia, and France and calling out to far away travellers.

How far away would a ship have to be before it could no longer be heard?  Do the ice crystals suspended in a fog help a sound travel better, or would it muffle the sound instead?

The cruise liners and the cross-channel ferries and the fishing boats continued their solitary journeys all night, periodically calling and warning with their fog horns.

Monday 20 December 2010

"What will you do next year that you've been putting off for too long?"

Originally posted here, as part of the 20sb blog swap.

I didn't have to think too long about this -- even though as I rapidly approach 30, there's so many things I have been putting off for too long.  Putting off anything is probably putting it off too long! Among the many things are *Get into shape *Travel more *Get (or create) a job I enjoy rather than at best tolerate *Take part in a new fundraising adventure (like Peru '09).  

However, this isn't to be a list.  Me and lists haven't ever really been friends.  Instead I want to focus on just one thing that I have been putting off for longer than I'd care to admit.  I was inspired to think of it by this blog's charming host, Andy -- a Latin lady living life in France. What I will do next year that I have been putting off for too long is properly learn another language.  

Oh, sure. I learned French for several years at school, so I can walk into a hotel and say "I have a room reservation", I can ask what time the next train for Dieppe leaves.  I can order a meal, and I can make very limited conversation about my family.  But as soon as I am asked a question -- like is your reservation for a smoking or non-smoking room -- then being able to say "the cat is on the chair, the mouse is under the table, and the monkey is on the branch" is suddenly less helpful.  And despite all this talk of learning French, what I really want to learn is Spanish. I have been saying for years I will learn Spanish.  Most of the time it was "just because", because I like Spanish movies and the way the language sounds, or because I was going to Seville, or going to Peru, but like so many things (*ahem*, see above) it's never really happened.  Mainly due to laziness.  Before I went to Seville, I left it so late that the only language course I could get was some scratched CDs of Latin American -- so I was undoubtedly ordering tapas in Latin American Spanish with an Essex accent.  If I had kept going with the course, it would have come in very handy when I travelled to Peru a few years later. Peru was something that I had kept saying I was going to do, but I think people never really thought I would -- because I'm a dreamer and like to dream up big adventures but they don't materialise.  However, I was inspired by some mutual friends who did amazing things to raise money for charity and I went ahead and did it.  And like I say -- it was with very limited Spanish.  From my love of Spanish language films I could insult people in the various ways, and I could do the normal touristy things.  But it's not good enough for me now.    

This year we were meant to take a week's holiday in Barcelona, the girl and I, but unfortunately it got cancelled due to unforeseen volcano-related disruption.  I meant to learn Spanish before that holiday as well, and never did, and at the time I remember saying that at least this way I'd have time to really learn it for when we do go.  Any progress with that?  None so far.  2011 will change that.  I will be a man of my word, and a man of action.  Mostly because I am telling so many people -- and now a new internet audience -- about it that I will have no excuse not to.  One of my new colleagues at work is Spanish, as is one of my biggest clients, so there are very good reasons to do these things I promise. This time next year I will be saying more than just "Hablo un poco", "Dos cerveza, por favor", "Mi casa es su casa", "Si vende tormenta!"   or, my favourite, "No entiendo".  I don't want to just be functional, or conversational, and while I recognise that "fluent" is a big ask, if you aim for the moon and you miss, then at least you are among the stars.  

It's strange, in a way.  As time goes on I am discovering passions and interests that surprise me.  This isn't nearly as off-topic as it is going to seem.  

I mean, I have always liked words.  I loved being read to as a child, and from an early age I was making up stories.  When on a Monday morning we'd be asked to write about what we did at the weekend, if we did nothing interesting we could write about a game we played -- and I would from there write long, involved stories about the game I played with my Star Wars figures.  I read almost constantly, and while I regret now not being more diverse in my reading material, it's obvious that I have always been fascinated with reading and writing stories.  But what has only really begun to emerge out of that since my teens is a particular fascination with words themselves -- entirely apart from the stories they make up.  In more recent years, my fascination has extended to words in other languages -- their sounds are like poetry on their own, and books like 'Toujours Tingo' have opened my eyes to a galaxy of meanings and thoughts expressed through simple words. Had this interest been there from an earlier age, perhaps I would have taken language studies more seriously or given thought to things like becoming a translator.  

It's worth mentioning that other things that have bloomed in more recent years is an attraction to adventure sports (I was notoriously bad at sports when I was at school) and a reawakening of a childhood love of space.  But that's all beside the point.  

Returning one final time to the point, I have been putting off for far too long learning Spanish (and from there, the world! perhaps) but it's here in black-and-white. It's been put off for far too long, but next year I will learn Spanish.  

And hopefully also get into shape, sign up for another adventure, and all the rest.

20sb Blog Swap!

Today's post is guest written -- brought to you by the powers of the 20-something bloggers blog swap, in conjunction with Andy of And Then France Happened.  Don't forget to go say hi when you've enjoyed this post!
Action. What will you do next year that you've been putting off for too long?

Hi! This is Andy or Andrea (as you want) from And Then France Happened. I started this blog a few weeks ago, after moving my posts from one blog to another since 2008 (older posts are not in my blog). I come from a teeny tiny country in Central America (El Salvador), but then I moved to France to make my superior studies (I hate how that sounds, "superior", but that's how they call University in France). It's been a year and a half since I moved, and right now I'm at my aunt's, in Belgium, to spend Christmas vacations!

Without wanting to make a New Years' Resolution List, I know that I would love to change some things in my life. This year has been just great. I started a new chapter of my life, getting rid of former friends who I don't need anymore. I got new friends, a new apartment that I don't share with one of those unnecessary former friends, a new professional path, etc.

Changes are already announcing themselves: when January starts I will be in a whole new apartment, living with 3 other people. So, my first "resolution" would be to decorate my room. This is my 3rd apartment here in France, and yet I think that the only sign that I was living there was my mess. And the picture of my family hung over my desk. So I really need to feel like I am in "my" room in this new apartment.

I would also say that I probably need to take pictures more often. I have a GORGEOUS Canon 20D that I mostly use for taking pictures during parties. It's like I had a high-resolution compact digital camera. I know my pictures aren't that bad, but I also know practice makes the master. I'm not hoping to be a master of photography (because I only plan this to be a hobby), but at least take nice pictures I can afterwards print and frame proudly in my apartment's walls.

Languages are a weak point for me: I LOVE learning new languages and I feel that I have a little talent for it. I can fluently speak and write English and French, and Spanish is my mother language. But I would love to learn Italian and Portuguese. Many will say "what for?, learn Chinese or Japanese", but at the end of the day I'll learn them more for my pleasure than thinking of my CV. So this year, I'll take Italian learning more seriously.

I already lost my "chance" last year when I changed of professional path in my superior education. I can't make a "faux pas" anymore. I have to complete this academic year. I started with the right foot, but I feel I have also been slacking lately. I need to work work work. I need to discipline myself not to procrastinate. I need to learn how not to fall into temptation.

VoilĂ . Those are the points that I personally think I need to start doing, NOW. I know that if I start putting off some things, I will forget that I actually need to be doing them.

I hope you're all having great Holidays, I wish vacation will come shortly for those who are still working, I will say enjoy the snow if you have some outside (I do) and if not, enjoy the sun (if you have the luck), or in the worst of cases, enjoy the cold without snow (I don't know how you do it).

Sunday 12 December 2010

Things fall into place

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Things today have felt a bit like they are falling into place.

I mentioned in a previous post about Marianne Cantwell's Escape Your Corporate Cage career course that I had enrolled on, after things failed to take off for me with the similar Screw Work, Let's Play programme.  This Tuesday will be the second teleclass of the program, and I have been working on my accompanying worksheets.

The first set had me start with imagining my dream life -- not so hard to do, it involved things like writing and living near the sea and working from home.  I came a little unstuck around having to come up with a kind of project the first week -- I just drew a blank.  Like with Screw Work, Let's Play and the book's "Play Wednesdays", it should be something that's fun to do and you enjoy and would ideally form a part of your ideal life.  It's pretty sad when you can't think of anything.

To try and make some progress, and because it comes highly recommended by Ms Cantwell and John Williams, I took the Wealth Dynamics test.  I voiced some reservations at first.  In some ways it isn't too dissimilar to the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator -- that I took last year when I was out of work, and has no scientific validity its profiling.  While I wasn't assured of any kind of scientific validity to it, I was told that it would help with supporting me on the course if I did know what my WD profile is.

I wasn't exactly surprised when -- $100 later -- of the 8 personality profiles, I turned up the "creator".  I'd read that most people guess their profiles wrong before they take the test, but I would have been very surprised had mine turned up anything other than that.  Recently at work we were giving interviewees psychometric tests, to rate their scores in various aspects, such as creativity and organisation.  I scored off the chart for creativity.

Considering I score so highly for creativity, I was a little disheartened that my muse was absent when I wanted to think of something to do.  I could think of my plans and free range career options, just not some little thing I could do for a taste of it.

Fortunately, today that has all changed.  I have worked through my worksheets for week 2, and was required to outline 3 or 4 ideas for my free range career.  My ideas were as follows:

1. Writing childrens books, in particular books about a naughty zebra who won't do things like have a bath or get ready for bed.  Why a zebra?  I just like them, and while I like things like Bongos and Zedonks more, they are a little obscure for childrens books.

2. An adventure sport company that benefits local communities.  It's an idea I have written on here about before, and it's a fairly simple concept.

3. Feature writer.  Essentially, I write about what I am passionate about.  In this case, I plan to talk to passionate and inspiring people and write about them.
I was then required to eventually narrow down my ideas to just one I am going to pursue for now.  It was hard. It was extremely bloody hard.  I wasn't worried so much about choosing the wrong thing, but I didn't want to not pursue something I was excited about.  In the end, I have decided that my third option gives me all of the elements I want most for my free range lifestyle, and can work other parts into it.

Starting immediately I am going to make contact with people I want to interview for my features.  Since I promised this year I would contact Carol Ann Duffy and Simon Armitage, they can be the start -- and my meeting now will be less "Can we have tea?" but more "I'd like to talk to you about your work".

I am excited and enthused to be starting on this -- the Zebra books can wait a little while.  I'm so excited I am ignoring that I have to go to work tomorrow, because this is really what my life is about...

Tuesday 7 December 2010

Long forgotten connection

Not so long ago, I got a "friend request" on Facebook from someone I didn't recognise.  I looked at the face, and I looked at the name, and I puzzled over it.  After a while and some digging through their profile, I finally worked it out -- this girl was my brother's ex-girlfriend.  From about 15 years ago.

I have no idea if my brother still has contact with this girl, but I expect he doesn't -- he isn't big into social networking, has limited contact with people from his past, and has long since moved away from our home town.

I found it more than a little creepy -- I mean, sure, we were quite close once.  When I was 15.  I think everyone drifted apart and found their own lives when my brother and this girl went to seperate universities, and I don't think it's unkind to say I've never really given her that much thought since.  What made it particularly weird for me was seeing that she had already added my parents as friends -- I wanted to tell her not to do that, to leave them in peace, they probably don't know that you aren't obligated to accept every request you receive.

Shunning her request, I thought no more of it.

Skip forward a few weeks or a month or however-long it was.  Another friend request turns up, from a girl named "Kate".  Following directly on from the weekend when I'd been talking to a friend and his fiance -- who is named Kate -- I accepted without thinking.  Then I noticed the little details -- about how our only mutual friends were my family, and I realised I'd accidentally accepted the long-forgotten sibling's ex.  Figuring it would be mean to delete her again, I moved her to Limited Profile so that she'd have restricted access to me and my life.

Seems that wasn't enough, since accepting her request was apparently like saying "please contact me further" and she sent me a long email.  Not much of it stands out, apart from the bit where she mentions having emailed my brother but not got a reply, and how she'd been looking at the photos of his boy.  I still find the whole thing more than a little bit weird.

I'm currently in a dilemma, despite all of the above.  I feel bad for not replying.  I know that I'm slightly offended when my emails go completely ignored, so part of me wants to send something -- however brief and short on details.  But the other part continues to insist that to reply will only encourage her -- and whether deliberate or not, my brother's tactic of not responding might be a better one.